Musings of the dejected...

I can honestly say that I had never been as vulnerable with another person in my entire life than I was that night. I can honestly say that for one brief moment the labyrinth of  walls and doors that secured my feelings and thoughts endured an unexpected paradigm shift where they became nonexistent and my eyes became the unlimited fenestration into my heart. 


What sparked it? I can only speculate, but I know one thing is for sure. It scared the hell out of me. That I was willing to offer myself so easily. To not think. To not take the time to realize that there is no way. Upon refection I know that it's all or nothing with us, and that i can't let him...or myself dive into a situation where I'm so tired that I am not even sure I have anything left of myself to give. 


Be a friend first and foremost...and return the walls. 


A sad day it is when you must walk away from something you want because you're scared you might be the one to hurt it.